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Thursday, August 25, 2016


The last few days I wanted to write something to memorialize my Mimi but I just couldn't find the words.  What do you say about someone whose been there since you were little.  Many things in my life has changed over the years.  I grew up, changed schools, moved overseas, got married, gave my life to Jesus, just life.  Just a whirlwind but it seemed to me that Mimi never changed.  She was there if you needed to talk.  She was a rock in my whirlwind world.  She had the greatest memory in the world.  She would ask about friends she'd never met just because I mentioned in a conversation.  When I grieve it takes awhile.  I am sort of like numb during the whole process and then it hits me like a ton of bricks.  When my mom passed away it hit me while driving home from the gas station.  Mimi's hit me going through my phone looking for a contact and there her phone number was.  It hit me that I can't call her again.

Everyone who knew my Mimi loved her.  What I love most is her confidence and the willing to say exactly what is on her mind.  You always knew where Mimi stood on something whether you agreed with her or not.  A lot of people don't know how generous she was too.  My Papa and Mimi were probably the most generous people I've ever met.  They never really talked about it but side comments from family and friends and somethings I've seen them do showed me exactly how generous they were.  She loved to read.  As my Dad said in his speech at her funeral you would never she her without her bible, or bible study plan she was reading.  In fact, when her eye sight started to go my Dad and his sisters got her a Kindle so she could blow up the font so she could always read it.  She loved her Jesus and it rubbed off on all of us.  In fact, it is because of that I know that although I grieve for her I will see her again.  People usually just say that and don't really know what it means.  It feels good to say that I will see her again but some people really don't believe.  I 100% believe that I will see her again, because we were both saved by Jesus meaning I gave up my self centerness and ugliness and ask Jesus to be the Captain of my life and she did as well.  You see Mimi was unapologetic in her love for Jesus.  She definitely wasn't ashamed to be known as a Jesus follower.  In an age when it isn't the most popular thing she didn't care.  I strive to be the same way I am unapologetically a Jesus follower.

Some of you reading this are one of four people.  Those who are like preach bother, others are offended, others are "christians" but are afraid to be unapologetic, other are "christian" and love to say they are every chance they get for self-centered attention.  Wherever you land I just want you to be real with yourself and the world.  "So, because you are lukewarm--neither hot nor cold--I am about to spit you out of my mouth." Revelation 3:16-NIV  This is a powerful verse.  I am always so worried about what other people think.  If we are honest many of us are.  The truth we should only be worried about what Jesus thinks.  When we just try to please everybody instead of just pleasing Jesus people will hate us anyway but Jesus will SPIT US OUT.  He is the only person who has ever been there for me all of the time.  Unmoving, unchanging, like a rock.  Someone who has conquered death and come back.  Someone who wants to have a relationship with YOU.  I invite you to call out to Jesus if you don't him personally just like my Mimi did, just like I do.  Even though I am a wretch as Paul says.  My Dad speech at my Mimi's funeral I would label as "Mom loved me anyway".  He proceeded to go through the list of stupid, comical, and bad things he did and yet "Mom loved me anyway".  God is the same way but more so because he is perfect and has unconditional love for us.  Mimi got that from pursuing to be more like Jesus because he was the first to love us.  

Mimi was a rock to me, but she left a greater gift by being one person who helped me see Jesus for who his really is.  I hope that you will see Jesus as my Mimi did.  Love you Mimi.

1 comment:

  1. She'll always be with you in your memories. Call your Grandpa Gene as often as you can. I'm sure he'd be glad to hear from you every day, if possible. Love to you and your family. Rick Gardner