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Wednesday, October 14, 2015

In the Fire

Sometimes, life throws you a curve ball.  We have all been there.  Work is not going the way we want to go, someone we love gets diagnosed with cancer, we don't know how we are going to pay the rent for this month, we are in a deep mental depression, or someone we love or care about dies.  How do we respond to these devastating circumstances?

Last year was a challenging year for me personally.  Everything seemed to going wrong for me and it ended with my mom passing away.  I was in the fire during this period of my life.  I was low real low.  Life brought me to my knees.  I thought life wasn't fair, I thought I wasn't getting what I deserved.  Me being a devout follower of christ even question God why he let things like this happens.  Many people who go through tragedy can relate to this.  Tonight and during that period of my life I was reminded of a verse that says " all things give thanks to the Lord."-1 Thessalonians 5:18.

I was reminded by a man I respect that the verse clearly didn't say for all things but in all things.  During that period in my life I would not have survived if God was not there.  Mentally, physically, and emotionally I was drained but I sustained or rather God sustained me.  It's hard to explain but I knew God would use this tragedy for good.

So I come back to the question how do we handle it when we are in the fire.  Do we blame life, God, cancer?  Definitely could and may be justified doing it.  Or do we cast our cares on God who can sustain us in all things and use everything for good.   When we can't see the forest through the trees we have to remember that God is there to be our life.  To sustain us when we are tired.  To be there with us because God is in us.

Some of you maybe reading this and thinking what's he talking about?  How can he be thankful for these bad things that happen.  Easy answer I'm not.  I am thankful in all things.  That when I was lost, broken, apart, and lost in my selfish desires that God saved me and healed me from brokenness and brought towards him.  I asked him to heal my brokenness, come into my life, and be my captain.    That is what I am thankful for that even though I'm hurting or someone I love is hurting I know my divine father is there looking out for me.  That he is with me in me sustaining me and if I was to die today I would be with him and if I was to live today he will be with me.

I am far from perfect.  Everyday I prove how hypocritical and non perfect I am.  That is what makes God's grace so awesome because he likes an arrogant, self absorbed, and imperfect me.

In conclusion, I cast everything on God and give thanks to him who saved during the fire.  I know it isn't easy.  I know when the hour is darkest it is really hard to see how things can get better, but through faith God will see us through.

Friday, September 4, 2015

Too Busy for Life

     Lately, I have come to realize how busy people are.  We are so busy all the time trying to make life happen and we never stop to think why we are busy or what is so important that we need to stay busy.  I understand the basic need to survive and provide.  The need to have a job so we can pay for electricity, water, and a roof over our heads.  Maybe even save for retirement.  I've talked to many people who have passed away.  The one thing any of them ever talked about wasn't about how much money they had or how much stuff they had.  It was two things typically.  They talked about things they loved or things they wished they had done.
     I remember high school.  Funny thing I remember about high school is how much stuff I did.  I went to school all day and then went to work.  The funny thing is I spent more hours and actually had my time spoken for more back then, however I didn't feel busy.  The need to do something all the time.  I mainly wanted to relax, hang out with my friends, and hang out with my family in my off time.  I had time to dream big dreams.  Think about life on the other side.
     So what happened?  Some would say life, responsibility, a wife maybe.  I don't think so.  True those things cause me to go to work and provide but I think it's the lie.  What lie am I talking about you ask? the lie that we need the 'American Dream'.  Big house, big car, 2.5 babies and an expensive hobby.  Notice that I use the word 'need'.  We feel we 'need' these things, so we go around working, buying a big house, getting our 2.5 kids since that is what we want.  Now you can substitute those 3 things with whatever you want.    I also think it is the need to 'be somebody'.  We are told when we are young that we can be anything we want.  That we are special.  Although this is a true statement we get to adult life and told if we don't live a dream and constantly produce that we are nothing.
     I know I am rambling a bit but bear with me.  My point is we are all zombies.  So hooked on making a living or living the 'American Dream' that we forget what is really important.  The one thing we can't get back is time.  I understand we all want stuff, money, and we all have our dreams.  It is important to have dreams and achieve them as well.  But lets not forget why we are achieving our dreams.